Before you think about that time remember not everything is forever. Eventually we all leave for a while but life has to keep going. In this case my time has come for me to go and I'm honestly going to miss you very much. I hope you don't hate me for this. I wish you can understand that we all have to go back to work again I mean... In order to provide for you too. I carried you in my belly, I kept you warm and safe until the time has come. You decided to be here before Halloween 🎃 haha... My little devil you, what a stormy day you couldn't wait.
I told daddy it's almost time for her but he didn't believe me. He thought I was joking all the time. So here you are and that pretty little face not yet opening your eyes for the first days. I went on maternity leave right away but you are still at the NICU for not sure how long. I cry inside, yes I show no emotions because I have so much different emotions burning inside. All types of joy, sadness, worry, happiness, and so much I can't explain. God gave me you and a purpose is a blessing from up above.
Don't hate me, don't think I'm leaving you behind and please don't question my mixed actions. Mommy loves you and she will always love you no matter what. I'll miss you for those 8 hours of my shift and I will think of you. The things we can do when I see you again. Just want you to be a happy baby and explore while I'm gone. Maybe once or twice give your papa a smelly poopy diaper to clean haha just kidding. Your storms are my storms and your sadness I will blow away. Whenever you feel alone and unhappy just think of that strong little babygirl you were born to be. See you later honey bun. Until then we will be together again.
Love always Mommy
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