“Mind Over Matter”
Some days there’s tears running down my cheeks. The tears, the sadness in my heart, but I laugh just like nothing is wrong. Just overlooking at what the future holds. But nothing seems to work. “Keep smiling" my voice says, but my mind is saying "be sad.” I cry, I laugh and I smile pretending everything else is good. And nothing seems to work. Taking that smile and not look sad is hard to do. The sun is bright enough, but all I see is dark clouds blocking the light. People say "Mind over Matter” How? If your mind is being taken over a monster with no face and a voice that speaks for you. No power over to thoughts. The brain is thinking hard that the brain becomes tired and starts to shut down. Let’s stop counting and overthinking. Asking myself over and over again… At what time of the day will this end? And will I make it out? Will this darkness go away? Is it a nightmare? So, how can it go away if the pills are the way I can go on living? Fighting for your life...